| For the sake of an update |
[Oct. 4th, 2003|12:51 pm] |
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| | "Rat In A Cage" - Smashing Pumpkins | ] |
looks like this is gonna be a monthly thing. i love this too much to give it up, and not enough to update everyday. Well. We'll see
( too much info ) |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2003|08:15 pm] |
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| | Duran Duran - The Reflex | ] |
Dj needs to stop doing wierd shit. LAN is acting funky. Had yet ANOTHER panic attack.
Am beginning to think am giving myself an ulcer.
Thank god Faire is this weekend. |
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| busy! |
[Aug. 23rd, 2003|12:49 pm] |
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| | buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz | ] |
nice!boy is still after me, and while i am amused, i am not particularly attracted. we will see how i feel after monday. didnt i say i didnt want nice boys?
russian!girl is no longer single, and thusly, i am angsty again. Have interpreted this as a sign from god that i suck. Stupid god, always smiting me ;_;
school starts monday, which is a kick in the head because i'll be a senior. have to do well in school, and graduate with a 3.0 or i will be VERY upset.
Have to get in my applications to SUNY Albany, UMass Boston, Rutgers(?), Hawai'i Pacific(?), and _________. angst.
have to prepare for faire. must remember to update more often. |
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| school angst |
[Aug. 7th, 2003|11:04 am] |
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| | "Scheissegal" - Wolfgang Petry | ] |
( pros and cons )
bother. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2003|04:46 pm] |
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| | Fiona Apple - To Your Love | ] |
Bush makes me more and more disgusted every time he speaks.
i'm gonna go try and find tickets to HoB in LA. hasta. |
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| sad sad people |
[Jul. 30th, 2003|01:42 pm] |
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| | Fiona Apple - "Fast as you can" | ] |
Now, i think ive gotten at least 20 IMs on Yahoo in the past week from 28-year-old marines. the just get worse and worse. youd think me saying im a lesbian would make then leave me alone. i mean, sure, its a lie, but you'd figure, right??? x_X
( this guy is a loser ) |
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| SKIN |
[Jul. 29th, 2003|11:53 pm] |
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| | THE YELLOW MONKEY - PRIMAL | ] |
B'z NORTH AMERICAN TOUR
Oct 12 Las Vegas @ House Of Blues
Oct 14, 15 Los Angeles @ House of Blues
Oct 18 San Fransisco @ The Fillmore
Oct 21 Seattle @ The Showbox
Oct 23 Vancouver @ Commodore Ballroom
*ORGASM* *freaks out* i must must MUST GO TO THIS LIVE!!!!
because really, how often does that happen? onew of my favourite bands play a live relatively close??? and and and AND-- i missed the last show they did here (in LA). I. MUST. GO.
who wants to come with????
((on a side note, i still cant find my B'z album. i wonder who has it o-O)) |
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| eternity |
[Jul. 26th, 2003|03:23 pm] |
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| | Hot Hot Heat - "Bandages" | ] |
holy jesus. 9 days since my last entry.
you know, i must be young, becuase 9 days seems like an eternity ago. Maybe its just the drugs.
then again, i feel very old. yesterday, my friend Cassie, who's a sophmore, accidently threw her drumsticks, and they hit her Kurt Cobain poster - and i said "you know, i saw Nirvana in concert, once." and she commented that of course i did, because im old enough to have been around then. And then Lily, who'se also a sophmore, said "Who's Bob Dylan?" the INSANITY of it all.
*stabs self* i hate feeling old ^^; |
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| See if i sound like Oliver Twist when i ask for MORE |
[Jul. 17th, 2003|10:38 am] |
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| | "Lazy Days" - Robbie Williams | ] |
Ignoring some of the obvious comedic points in the movie version of Hannibal ("it seemed like a good idea at the time.." - mason verger [regarding peeling off his face]), i was sorely dissappointed in all of the film versions of the Lecter trilogy, excepting The Red Dragon, which i havent seen yet, much to my dissappointment, because that was my favourite of the three books.
But really, Thomas Harris is an absolute genius.
( spoilers for the end of <i>Hannibal</i>, by Thomas Harris )
Any thoughts. mon amis? |
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| youre almost as ugly as...your FACE! o_o |
[Jul. 8th, 2003|07:39 pm] |
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| | Lucifer to iu na no oningyou - LLV | ] |
SO yesterday was my goddess(LLV)'s birthday. bow down and worship her, you snails!
anyway, i wanted to talk about this ho, Criss. In fact, she's not a ho at all, she's actually one of my closest dearest friends in the world and ive known her forever. anyw, she came over today, for like, an hour or two and we roasted marshmallows over the stove, and took silly pictures with my webcam. i hearts her muchly.
yeah. ^_^ |
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| what band... |
[Jul. 7th, 2003|01:08 am] |
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WHAT BAND....
Makes you cry: Tori Amos
Makes you laugh: 2ge+her
Makes you smile: Yellow Monkey
Reminds you of an ex friend: Hanson
You never want to hear it again: Las Ketchup
Reminds you of your childhood: Aqua, Dead or Alive
You want to get married to: Kaggra
You like to wake up to: Red Hot Chilli Peppers
You like out of your parents record collection: i like all of my dads record collection. Three Dog Night, baby!!
You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: Nightwish, H.O.T.
You love the video: shinhwa's "castle" or something like that. i cant remember the name.
Reminds you of your first crush: Hanson
Remind you of your new crush/love: Robbie Williams
Makes you think of sex: E Nomine
Makes you think of being alone: Dido
Are embarrassed to admit you like: MoMuse
Perks you up: Kodo
You love to sing: absolutely anything.
in other news, in that movie about me? i want me to be played byFairuza Balk. she is GORGEOUS. you might remember her from The Craft or The Worst Witch (i loved that one), she was in Return to Oz and Worst Christmas Pageant Ever. :D |
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| The Sodundtrack To My Life |
[Jul. 5th, 2003|11:24 am] |
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| | "Message In A Bottle" - Sting & The Police | ] |
it's a long film. :)
Opening Credits: "Moi Lolita" - Alizee
Independent Woman Scene: "La Belle Dame Sans Regrets" - Sting
Horny Scene: "Leather" - Tori Amos
Protest Scene: "The War Song" - Culture Club
Drug Scene: "Eyes Love U" - hide
Drag Racing Scene: "Twin Turbo Power" - Initial D
Drinking Scene: "Bottom of a Bottle" - Smile Empty Soul
Falling For Best Friend Scene: "Wonderwall" - Oasis
Alone On Christmas Scene: "Itsuka no Merry Christmas" - B'z
First Love Scene: "Too Shy" - Kajagoogoo
Pretending Lover Isnt Actually Scene: "Dont Stand Too Close" - Sting
Depression Scene: "Im Only Happy When It Rains" - Garbage
SI Scene: "Dried Up, Tied Up, and Dead to the World" - Marilyn Manson
Average-day scene: "Beautiful Thing" - Orange Pekoe
Random Bollywood scene: "San Sanana" - Aka Yagnik & Hema Saredsai
Best-friend scene: "Malice Mizer"-- Brise
First-date scene: "Merry-Go-Round" - Tim Mudd
Falling-in-love scene:"A Sorta Fairytale" - Tori Amos
One-on-One Fight scene: "Smack My Bitch Up" - Prodigy
Sex scene: "Tourniquet" - Rasputina
Battle scene:" Etude in C Minor (Opus 25 No. 12)" - Vladimir Horowitz
Stripper scene: "E Nomine"-- Padre Nuestro
Lovey-Dovey Moment scene: "Why Cant I" - Liz Phair
Fight-with-friend scene: "Yu-Karak Li" - Kodo
Break-up : "You Think You're A Man" - Queer As Folk
Silly scene: "One Night In Bangkok" - Chess
Get-back-together scene: "Fetisha" - Orgy
Kick Ass Evil scene: "Run" - Franke Potente (Run Lola Run)
Mental-breakdown scene: "Zoku" - Kodo
Driving scene: Speed Racer Theme
Deep-thought scene: "Fur Elise"
Regret scene: "Touched" - Vast
Lesson-learning scene: "as" - Chachamaru
Graduation Song: "Road Trippin'" - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
"Life's okay" scene:" Foxy Blue Love" - The Yellow Monkey
Party at house scene: "Where's Yo head at?" - unknown
Happy dance scene: "Vanilla" - Gackt
Kareoke Scene: "Iyokan" - Saber Marionette J
Flashback scene: "The Herb Girls of Birkenau" - Rasputina
Told-you-so Scene: "Intuition" - jewel
Reminiscing Scene: "Parallel Universe" - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Slow-Happy Dance with friends Scene: "Alles aus Liebe" - Die Toten Hosen
Studying Hard Scene: "Redemption Song" - Bob Marley
Death scene: "Who Wants To Live Forever" - Sarah Brightman
Other bg music: "Your So Damn Hot - OK Go
"Guava Juice" - Porno Graffitti
"Run To You" - Shinhwa
"Hello! Orange Sunshine" - Judy and Mary
"Get Busy" - Sean Paul
"California Love" - Tupac Shakur
"Get Mine Get Yours" - Christina Aguilera
"Love and Liberte" - Gipsy Kings
"Maria" - Rage Against The Machine
Closing credits: "End of Regret" - Nookicky |
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| feeling crispy |
[Jul. 3rd, 2003|11:32 pm] |
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| | "Real Emotion" - Koda Kumi | ] |
peeling. burning. ow.
i feel like a big fat piglette. and i look like one. im all pink.
SUNBURNT. EVERYWHERE. OWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ;-;;;; |
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| happy phantom |
[Jul. 1st, 2003|11:39 am] |
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thats it. i am cheering up NOW. here that, self? no more moping! BE HAPPY!
and you know what else? Tori Amos is going off. you are puttin gon the Cure and YeMon and silly rap music. YOU HEAR ME?! |
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| pouting |
[Jun. 28th, 2003|11:56 pm] |
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| | Masha Rasputina | ] |
SATs came in. am going to skulk around for a while. however good i did do, doesnt really matter so much to me as that i didnt do better than what i was aiming for.
babysat jaide tonight, and babysitting vincenzo tomorrow. I HATE KIDS AND NEED A BETTER JOB. |
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| random stuff |
[Jun. 27th, 2003|02:06 pm] |
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| | "Primal" -The Yellow Monkey | ] |
there are 613 rules in Judaism. Most of them are actually just common-sense sort of things, but i was reading them over today. As a side note - gay sex is prohiited (sodomy), but lesbian sex isnt mentioned. Homosexual love of the romantic nature in any form is acceptable (excluding incest), but its the 2 guys sex thing thats not allowed. *finds this all veeery interesting* of course, i'd have to discuss this with a rabbi.
61/613 broken... thats about .01%! im doing pretty good! granted, most dont apply to me... but hey, whateva >> |
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| wasting time |
[Jun. 27th, 2003|01:07 pm] |
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| | "Intuition" - Jewel / "Why Cant I" - Liz Phair | ] |
( bored. ) |
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| "I" statements. |
[Jun. 27th, 2003|03:57 am] |
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| | "Lucifer to iu na no o-ningyou" by Fiction | ] |
i hate this. i hate you. i hate them. i hate me. i hate the food im not eating. i hate that i eat to much. i hate that i havent been eating. i hate that im poor. i hate that im a capitolist pig. im sorry im not good enough for you. im sorry i'll never be good enough for you. im sorry i havent tried. im sorry my best wasnt good enough. im sorry im not you. im sorry i tried to be my own person. i hate when you shove your religion at me. i hate when you ignore me. i hate that everyone ignores me. im sorry im a bitch. im not sorry that im an asshole or a bastard because you deserve it. im going to fucking kill you. im sorry i hurt you. im sorry i let you hurt me. im sorry i let you get away with it. im sorry you have to read this. I am sick of sitting here. I am sick of having no life. I am sick of no being feeling loved. I am sick of the shit you tell me to believe. I don't want to live a life like this. I am scared of wasting my time, I just want to let go. I want to forget everyone. I am tired of being toyed with, being put aside. I keep forgetting what time it is. The clock on the computer fucks with my head too much. Wearing the same old clothes everyday. I can't get a job, I can't find a place for myself. I am sick of society's misconceptions. I am tired. I am tired. I am tired. I am tired. I am tired. I am tired. I am tired. I am tired of feeling like this. They tell me to relax, they tell me to calm down, how the fuck can one do so when they are screaming at the top of their fucking lungs all the goddamned time??? I want to have sex. I cannot get laid. Im tired of you telling me to shut up, I am tired of you telling me I am wrong. I am tired of you telling me I make my own problems. I am sorry, my life isn't perfect like yours. I am sorry I don't worship your God. I am sorry I don't see things your way. I am sorry I am not you. I am sorry I am not them. I am sorry I am not that you want me to be. i hate you. i am a girl. i dont have a fucking penis. ive got tits and i hate them. im not fat. im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not im not. im sorry im not thin enough. im sorry i cant lose 2-stone at the drop of a hat. im sorry im not a barbie doll. im not a fucking blonde. im better than this. im better than you. im a miserable little brat. im having issues and everyone is ignoring it. im pissed at all the self-centered egotistical pigs. i hate how whats-her-face thinks she's a fucking shrink just cause she's taking classes in it and now feels she's the fucking authority. i have seen more psychologists than she's ever heard of. im going to kill you. im going to skin you and use your head as a candy dish. IM SORRY YOU HAVE TO READ THIS. i am angry. i am going to scrape the floor with your face. im going to fuck you senseless. i love you. im going to take you to bed with me and feed you cake and wine. i am going to explode . i am going to cry. i am going to keep smiling and pretending im happy. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. i am going to crawl into a hole and rot. i am going to scream and cry and hope it all goes away. |
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| stole this from kim....and borrowed a few answers too |
[Jun. 24th, 2003|11:17 pm] |
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| | Gingerbread Coffin - Rasputina | ] |
Part One - Names
1. Your REAL Name: Anna
2. What friends call you: Anya, Anka(h), Ciel, Ume, Bella, Chacha, Lian, Knifey
3.What your (ex) boy/girlfriend calls you:Hon seems to be the usual one.. had a ex that called me sweet-pea
4. What's a name you once wished you'd rather have?: Anastasia
5. What is/are the ugliest name(s) you can think of?: Bernice
6. What would you name these if you had them as pets?
a. turtle: sharkie
b. goose: goose
c. pirate: Roberts (can i have a pet pirate! PLEASE?!)
d. a hot boy: Teusday
7. If there was a song about you, what would it be called?: Blood Bathe
8. What would you name your kids?: hate kids
9. What would you name a ship you built?: Das Boot
10. If you wrote a book, what would it be called?: I am writing a book and its called ''Belladonna"
Part Two - Have you ever... ... .
11. Thrown up in public?: Yeah, but i was very sick
12. Eaten or drank anything spoiled?: dont recall
13. Had a rip in your pants you didn't know about?: yeah
14. Tripped while checking someone out?: no, but i did crash my bike once.
15. Had to pay for something you broke?: No - i would usually run away very fast
16. Nearly drowned?: no! =D
17. Passed out?: haha yeah
18. Had a crush on somebody NOT single?: Of course
19. Been stuck in the rain?: Yeah
20. Been attacked by an animal?: Yes
21. Caught people having sex?: yup
22. Fallen asleep while driving?: Cant drive
23. Felt attracted to someone of the same sex?: Yeah
24. Actually slipped on a banana peel?: No
25. Made a wish that came true?: no
Part Three - Complete The Sentence
26. I once had a dream i was kissing.... naiki
27. I'm only racist towards... christians who shove bibles at me
28. I don't even know why I... bother to wake up in the morning sometimes
29. I'd give anything to have sex with... johnny depp
30. Nothing sucks more than having to... breath
31. If i had six bucks i'd buy... chinese food and marshmallow fluff
32. It's hot. I should take off my... shirt
33. It's always more fun if you.... take the upper hand
34. You can't eat steak without.... teeth
35. You better shut up before I ... chain you to the bed and smack your ass
36. Just put it in my... bank account
37. I really like you and everything.... so lets go home and have sex
38. I'm not who you think I am. I'm really... someone you wouldnt understand even if you tried
39. Dude! Where's my.. money. fuck im broke.
Part Four - What would you do if..
40. A dirty old guy at the airport slaps your ass?: Beat the fuck out of him
41. You witness somebody about to steal your car?: Shoot.
42. You wake up with a billion spiders crawling all over you and your bed?: die. allergic.
43. You farted while giving a persuasive speech in class?: nope
44. The person you just kissed tells you they have oral herpes?: ...............dude. thats just cold sores. then id hit them with a brick.
45. A genie let's you have three wishes?: 1 million untaxable dollars in cash, a good sex life and unlimited wishes
46. The government allowed you to choose one thing to be made illegal and one thing to be legalized?: illegal to persecute for sexual preference, legal to drink at 16
47. Britney Spears was at your front door asking for jumper cables?:shoot the bitch
48. You had a time machine?: I'd go back and make my parents buy stock in microsoft.
49. FOX gave you a half hour show to do whatever you wanted?: get rasputina to do a concert.
Part Five - Would You Rather
50. Would you rather find the cure for cancer or the cure for aids?: Aids.
51. Would you rather have the power to fly, or the power to teleport?: Teleport of course! philly, then heesey's room! *l*
52. Would you rather have the power to see the future, or the power to record your dreams?: See in the future. i dont dream
53. Would you rather be really skinny, or really fat?: skinny. im society's whore ;-;
54. Would you rather be lost in a forest, or stuck in a box?: Lost in a forest, might be fun
55. Would you rather be in a drama movie, or a comedy?: Drama. i live for it
56. Would you rather be in a hip hop video or a rock video?: Rock
57. Would you rather have your birthday on Christmas Day, or on February 29th?: my birthday IS christmas o-o
58. Would you rather live in the sewer, or in Afghanistan?: Afghanistan
59. Would you rather be in a mental institution or in a penitentiary?: The pen... institutes are fucking scary
60. Would you rather snow board or hang glide?: Snow board
61. Would you rather be a ninja or a pirate?: Pirate!!
Part Six - What's the FIRST thing that comes to your mind when you read the following words?
62. Courage: Guts
63. Driver: DVD
64. Yoga: Hatha
65. Bakery: Danish
66. Roach: clip
67. Mushroom: mario
68. Sprung: monkey
69. Exotic: eyes
70. Pythagorean: Beer
Part Seven - Miscellaneous
71. Construct an acronym for these words. (im so crap at these)
(example: G M S = Give Me Steak )
a. S O L R A C: So Only Lovers Read Ariel Chapman?
b. D A N G E R: Dont Alienate Ninja Gurus Ever Rules.
c. C H I N A: Chicken Have Ingrown Nails Always
d. R P G: Role - Playing Geeks
72. What is your definition of love?: an unexplainable force that is both our reason for joy and our reason for pain
73. List 3 clues to identifying a person you are currently interested in: lebanese, asshole, gorgeous
74. Reveal a secret about you that nobody knows of, but type it in acronym form.
(example: I Am Superman = IAS)
I H S W A S G
75. Close your eyes, turn around, and then open them.
76. Were you too scared to do it?: I thought it was weird, so i didnt do it
77. Who or what is your worst enemy?: MY LIVER
78. Who is the last person you kicked?: My brother
79. If you had to be a chess piece, which piece would you be?: The Queen of course
80. Name three people you know whose names begin with the last letter of your first name. Adam, Ariel, Annie
81. What's one romantic thing somebody's done for you?: Sean sang Angel Of The Night to me before i went to bed
82. If you had to break one of your bones, which bone would it be?: one i havent broken already.
Part Eight - What Is Your Counter Argument?
(Example: "You suck." ~~> "No YOU suck.")
83. "Girls are nothing but drama." Guys are nothing but trouble.
84. "Only idiots watch The Simpsons." Only idiots watch Dawson's Creek
85. "Kentucky is way better than California." Maybe if you own a gunrack.
86. "There's nothing wrong with stealing." nothing wrong with kicking your ass
87. "Alcohol is the answer to ALL your problems." Give me a beer, bitch
88. "You don't need to go to college to be a brain surgeon." sure you do. other wise you get arrested.
89. "Music is stupid." So is your face
90. "Your car sucks." Thats your moms car, not mine dumbass |
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| early/late |
[Jun. 21st, 2003|04:52 am] |
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horny ;-; |
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